My Mom..
Soon im gonna be married, and leave this hse.
The person Im gonna really really miss is definately the woman that gives birth to me.
Of cos, im coming home as often as i can.
but i guess the feeling is gonna be really different,
I would no longer come home after gym and pop into her room to see if she's asleep,
and ask if she needs to massage her leg or put oilment ..
I would not return home and see that there is soup waiting for me in the pot.
Although me and my mom always squabble, but deep down i care for her the most.
I noe she will miss me too, she has started telling me that i won't be seeing her soon...
I noe she doesn't favour the idea of me moving so far away.
but like i told her,
"someone with the heart will come back no matter how far she will go,
yet, someone without heart will not come back even if the distance is just one bridge away..."
I stayed with her for the past 27 yrs, i guess its not going to be easy for me to jus leave this hse.
I've been thinking if i would cry on my wedding day...
many tell me to cry in advance so that it wouldn't damage my makeup...
sigh....how to cry in advance????
like many other teenages, I grew up wanting to move out and hv a world of my own, but as soon as i grew out of that era, it is all but an impulse consideration.
I now appreciate how my parents discipline me to become what i am today.
how their teachings helped me survived thru many ordeals, and many stages of my life...
I have not been a very obedient daughter,
I am guilty of making my parents angry.
there's a saying from a serial that i always remembered,
" when a child makes a parent angry, it takes a while for the parent to forgive the child,
yet, when a child is angry with a parent, it takes forever for the child to accept the parent again.."
it's true...
how selfish....
I guess I will understand many more things as i proceed to another stage of my personal life with livingstone....
I love my parent, and I am really blessed to have livingstone who loves my parent too.
I love u Mom. I love u Pa.
I might be moving, but my heart will still be in this hse...with u.
listening to: Ye-Bai-He-Ye-You-Chun-Tian, Ah-Sang
Mood: Tearing...
The person Im gonna really really miss is definately the woman that gives birth to me.
Of cos, im coming home as often as i can.
but i guess the feeling is gonna be really different,
I would no longer come home after gym and pop into her room to see if she's asleep,
and ask if she needs to massage her leg or put oilment ..
I would not return home and see that there is soup waiting for me in the pot.
Although me and my mom always squabble, but deep down i care for her the most.
I noe she will miss me too, she has started telling me that i won't be seeing her soon...
I noe she doesn't favour the idea of me moving so far away.
but like i told her,
"someone with the heart will come back no matter how far she will go,
yet, someone without heart will not come back even if the distance is just one bridge away..."
I stayed with her for the past 27 yrs, i guess its not going to be easy for me to jus leave this hse.
I've been thinking if i would cry on my wedding day...
many tell me to cry in advance so that it wouldn't damage my makeup...
sigh....how to cry in advance????
like many other teenages, I grew up wanting to move out and hv a world of my own, but as soon as i grew out of that era, it is all but an impulse consideration.
I now appreciate how my parents discipline me to become what i am today.
how their teachings helped me survived thru many ordeals, and many stages of my life...
I have not been a very obedient daughter,
I am guilty of making my parents angry.
there's a saying from a serial that i always remembered,
" when a child makes a parent angry, it takes a while for the parent to forgive the child,
yet, when a child is angry with a parent, it takes forever for the child to accept the parent again.."
it's true...
how selfish....
I guess I will understand many more things as i proceed to another stage of my personal life with livingstone....
I love my parent, and I am really blessed to have livingstone who loves my parent too.
I love u Mom. I love u Pa.
I might be moving, but my heart will still be in this hse...with u.
listening to: Ye-Bai-He-Ye-You-Chun-Tian, Ah-Sang
Mood: Tearing...
