day 5....
sad miss tired cry recall no appetite ...
sad day,....
i miss my grandma ....
was so tired last nite after the sai gong's prayers and the burning of the big hse....
cry uncontrollably when i recall the times i visited grandma...
i had no appetite for dinner at all....
my heart gets so messy when i see the pple lowered grandma's coffin into the deep soil...
however, it was a very calm scene, we were expecting all of us to cry...
it was all very calming...
probably because grandma's body is still intact...
cremation will be terrible, govt purposely tekan familes, make the coffin trolley move so slowly that we were so sad during my grandpa's cremation last yr....
grandaunt called after dinner ... crying...
she miss her sister...she say tears come by itself...
mum say if grandma miss grandaunt in the other world, grandaunt will cry...
is it really that amazing?
both mum and i lie down together and miss grandma....i can see her eyes turning red...but i noe she is strong....she is trying hard not to cry...
but she tell me her heart feels terrible...we are missing the same person...
i can feel the kind of heart pain...
i can't accept that she's gone too...
i jus had dinner with her on sat...how can she be gone on sunday...less than 24hrs....this is not fair.... =(
i keep recalling the last words she told me on saturday before i left the hospital...
her words keep coming back to me...
i really miss her....so much so much....
sad day,....
i miss my grandma ....
was so tired last nite after the sai gong's prayers and the burning of the big hse....
cry uncontrollably when i recall the times i visited grandma...
i had no appetite for dinner at all....
my heart gets so messy when i see the pple lowered grandma's coffin into the deep soil...
however, it was a very calm scene, we were expecting all of us to cry...
it was all very calming...
probably because grandma's body is still intact...
cremation will be terrible, govt purposely tekan familes, make the coffin trolley move so slowly that we were so sad during my grandpa's cremation last yr....
grandaunt called after dinner ... crying...
she miss her sister...she say tears come by itself...
mum say if grandma miss grandaunt in the other world, grandaunt will cry...
is it really that amazing?
both mum and i lie down together and miss grandma....i can see her eyes turning red...but i noe she is strong....she is trying hard not to cry...
but she tell me her heart feels terrible...we are missing the same person...
i can feel the kind of heart pain...
i can't accept that she's gone too...
i jus had dinner with her on sat...how can she be gone on sunday...less than 24hrs....this is not fair.... =(
i keep recalling the last words she told me on saturday before i left the hospital...
her words keep coming back to me...
i really miss her....so much so much....
