My heart aches.....
This is an inserted post among my backloags....
Two days ago, I noticed bbTara's BCG was bigger then usual, however, i did not suspect that it was a bad swell..
The BCG scar was there for the past 9mths, and I was really not thinking much into it. How careless.....
At the back of my mind, I conveniently waited for Livingstone to flew back before we bring bb to the paediatric...at the same time, hoping that the swell will settle on its own.
So, this morning, we went to the clinic at 9am.
We were advised that the waiting time will be 4hrs at least....
"Everything happens for a reason...."
We brought bb home, and with this 'spare time', she managed to catch her afternoon nap, took her porridge and had her shower.
By the time we find our way back to the clinic, it was almost 3pm.
The first assessment revealed that it was a bacterial infection, and we were referred to the specialist at MAH. My heart sank when I heard 'im sorry dear, she is gonna need a minor surgery....'
:'(
The next thing I knew, livingstone and I were back at home packing some clothes, milk powder, bottles, documents, etc for admission to the hospital immediately...and with heavy hearts...
A couple of hours later, we were ready for the procedure....
The doctor confirmed that bbTara need not be sedated. It was not good news to me....I anticipated the worst screams from my 9mth old bb.... :(
Fyi.....the doc will be cutting bbTara as she was awake, squeezed out the puss, and scooped out the dirty blood and discharge, making sure that it will be clean. It will be an open wound. And we would hv to clean the external skin ourselves daily until the wound heals....
bbTara obviously didnt know what was in store for her, she lied down on her tummy, and had her butt exposed...the doc instructed us to see how he do it, especially the cleaning part....
By the time the knife went in, bbTara was screaming ='( at the top of her lungs...the worst scream i ever heard from her since the day she was born...
I couldn't open my eyes anymore...I couldn't bring myself to watch the procedure, I couldn't watch bbTara's helpless and painful face as she screamed... :'(
All I did, was to hold her so tightly, and cried with her....i am so weak.... :(
Anw, the rest is history.
The good news was, bbTara was waving goodbye to the doc and nurses after the procedure.... and was playing with livingstone outside the room smiling :)
She need not be hospitalised.
That really cheered us up abit.....
This is how the swell looked like before the surgery:
Thank God, for livingstone is back with me...and my mum and sister were also with us helping with the necc....thanks for the long q at the clinic, that gave us time to prepare her for the necc then to send her to the hospital immed without a proper nap, lunch and shower.
"bbTara, daddy & mommy know it must be pain...worse then pain in fact.
I wished mommy was the one under the knife instead....but u braved thru the procedure even though u were screaming...and u recovered so fast emotionally....Thank you baby...u showed me the strength u possessed. And we are so proud of u!! Daddy and Mommy loves u so much so much!!!"
And guess what, we cleaned her wound earlier on....and she did not even wailed or screamed...im really thankful ....
Two days ago, I noticed bbTara's BCG was bigger then usual, however, i did not suspect that it was a bad swell..
The BCG scar was there for the past 9mths, and I was really not thinking much into it. How careless.....
At the back of my mind, I conveniently waited for Livingstone to flew back before we bring bb to the paediatric...at the same time, hoping that the swell will settle on its own.
So, this morning, we went to the clinic at 9am.
We were advised that the waiting time will be 4hrs at least....
"Everything happens for a reason...."
We brought bb home, and with this 'spare time', she managed to catch her afternoon nap, took her porridge and had her shower.
By the time we find our way back to the clinic, it was almost 3pm.
The first assessment revealed that it was a bacterial infection, and we were referred to the specialist at MAH. My heart sank when I heard 'im sorry dear, she is gonna need a minor surgery....'
:'(
The next thing I knew, livingstone and I were back at home packing some clothes, milk powder, bottles, documents, etc for admission to the hospital immediately...and with heavy hearts...
A couple of hours later, we were ready for the procedure....
The doctor confirmed that bbTara need not be sedated. It was not good news to me....I anticipated the worst screams from my 9mth old bb.... :(
Fyi.....the doc will be cutting bbTara as she was awake, squeezed out the puss, and scooped out the dirty blood and discharge, making sure that it will be clean. It will be an open wound. And we would hv to clean the external skin ourselves daily until the wound heals....
bbTara obviously didnt know what was in store for her, she lied down on her tummy, and had her butt exposed...the doc instructed us to see how he do it, especially the cleaning part....
By the time the knife went in, bbTara was screaming ='( at the top of her lungs...the worst scream i ever heard from her since the day she was born...
I couldn't open my eyes anymore...I couldn't bring myself to watch the procedure, I couldn't watch bbTara's helpless and painful face as she screamed... :'(
All I did, was to hold her so tightly, and cried with her....i am so weak.... :(
Anw, the rest is history.
The good news was, bbTara was waving goodbye to the doc and nurses after the procedure.... and was playing with livingstone outside the room smiling :)
She need not be hospitalised.
That really cheered us up abit.....
This is how the swell looked like before the surgery:
Thank God, for livingstone is back with me...and my mum and sister were also with us helping with the necc....thanks for the long q at the clinic, that gave us time to prepare her for the necc then to send her to the hospital immed without a proper nap, lunch and shower.
"bbTara, daddy & mommy know it must be pain...worse then pain in fact.
I wished mommy was the one under the knife instead....but u braved thru the procedure even though u were screaming...and u recovered so fast emotionally....Thank you baby...u showed me the strength u possessed. And we are so proud of u!! Daddy and Mommy loves u so much so much!!!"
And guess what, we cleaned her wound earlier on....and she did not even wailed or screamed...im really thankful ....
Labels: appreciative, bbtara, heartpain, livingstone
